I am not perfect. Well, no one is. I am short-tempered and want things to always be perfect. I surmise that this stems from the fact that I know I am not perfect but want my world to be. Most of the time this works for me but I guess others get trampled in the process. So, I always make it a point to listen to others, though most of the time, I do the talking. Talking does wonders for an ailing heart, you know, and makes people feel that there is someone who can truly understand them. Through the years though, I have noticed that this bombastic attitude has gained me a myriad of friends, followers and admirers. However, at an equally proportional ratio, tons of contra partidos. So what do I do with these haters? I ignore them. Ignoring them makes them all the more irritated and edgy. Needless to say, since childhood, I've carried on the role of a leader. I've gone through different trainings, further education and experiences to ante' up my life. I was more often than not handling leadership or officer posts since God knows when, I taught at an early age, became a doctor before thirty, handled and managed multinational companies before 35 and steadily risen up in the corporate ladder one day at a time. For so many years I wondered how it felt like to be a follower. I have friends who are. In fact, I attract the most dreary of souls and become really good friends with them. They seem to hobble within my "light" bubble...sometimes, too close for comfort, but I allow them to..not so much because of pity, but because of a certain type of love developed (much like love for family).
Currently however, things are different. After going through so much trouble in 2011 (not a good year for me by the way), God has given me the answer I was looking for. I am now a follower. At least in my workplace. And I tell you, it is as fulfilling as being a leader and less stressful. I am now employed in a government facility clinic. I have a boss. Sometimes though, in my own little world, I still am the leader especially during duties, but handling a smaller group is easier than going global (if you know what I mean). These days, I can reflect on my life and focus on improvements. With the help of my spiritual adviser, Fr. Richie Santos, I have learned to be content with the simpler things in life. I work, still with much bravado but I have toned down in terms of temper, perfectionism and excitement. I have also learned that although it is a must, that I always consult with my loving husband, I am my own person. I should strive to be happy on my own without being selfish. I have gone back to reading books by my favorite authors, cooking great meals for my husband and doing the laundry. All these things make me happy. In the course of these simple day to day activities, I realized that God indeed will not leave you in times of trouble. As long as you call upon Him, there will be solutions to your problems. I have been there, you know. The solutions to my problems have arrived, just in the nick of time.
Now I will share with you something that Father Richie shared to me and my friends. I hope you can ponder on it. Have a wonderful day! One Love.
